My Greatest Love

Hi! I'm Fej. This photo was taken at my college classmate’s birthday. I’ll never forget that day. We watched a movie named Narnia, then played tong-its (a Filipino card game). We had so much fun. During that game, I finally found the courage to tell her I loved her. (Check the photo below.)

Not bad, right? I was pretty proud of myself—and incredibly happy. There’s another moment I’ll never forget. Our org, VPAPU, had a photoshoot. After the VPAO shoot, she asked if I could come with them to MOA and drive, since no one else could. Of course I said yes. We hung out by the seaside, the night was quiet, and our conversation just flowed. That’s where I held her hand for the first time. I thought she might get upset, but she didn’t. In that moment, I wished time would stop so I could stay with her a little longer.

After MOA—and a swimming trip—I began courting her. I even had to collect signatures from her relatives just to earn her sweet “yes.” Then there was that Tagaytay trip. We ate at Robinsons, and she gave me a pack of Cream-O. Fool that I was, I ate it and tossed the wrapper. In the car she asked where it was; I said I’d thrown it away. She said there was “something” in it, but wouldn’t tell me what. The next day after class I found another Cream-O. This time I checked the wrapper carefully, and there it was: two “O”s. “OO”—her yes. I can’t remember the exact date, but it was in November, either the 9th or the 10th.

But I was foolish. I didn’t value or protect her love. We argued, broke up, and eventually ended things for good. We got a second chance in 2014, but it didn’t last. I wanted to fight for us, but by then it was too late. That’s on me, if I had been better, maybe none of this would have happened.

I remember being at the Imus market once when someone called my name. I turned around, and there she was. My heart jumped seeing her again. I wanted to talk, maybe grab a meal, but I couldn’t. Someone was waiting in the car—my wife.

Even now, I still think of her. Even now, I remember our happiest days. She’s still in my heart, and I’ll carry that forever. In 2025, I had the chance to talk to her on the phone. Thank You, Lord, for that grace. My only regret is that I didn’t tell her how much I missed her. After that, there were no more calls or texts. She was gone again. If I could only turn back time, or be given a chance to be with you again, I’d swear with all my heart to love you deeper, care for you more, and never cause you pain. But, only God knows.

Wherever you are and whatever you’re doing, please take care. Don’t overwork yourself, and look after your health. I’m grateful our paths crossed, that I got to be with you, and that I experienced your love. I’ll carry it for a lifetime. I love you, and take care always, honey.

Fej